Saturday, January 1, 2011
Friday, October 29, 2010
Meltdown
It started off with me tossing and turning and tossing and turning till finally I got up at 5:30. I don't know why I couldn't sleep. I ended up getting on the computer and that didn't interest me. Finally after looking on my phone and playing with it I drifted back off to sleep. Sigh. I eventually woke up and started folding a bag of sheets that had been washed two weeks before. I hate folding linen. Not long after that a friend came over who ditched work and we wound up going to vote together. One hour and 24 minutes of wait time but it was worth it. After I was done BF picked me up and we were off to do our errands. He bought a load of crap that I needed and didn't need (Halloween Candy) but all in all I was happy with that. Tell me why when we got home "It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown" was on the tv and I bussed out crying. Why? Because my Mom faithfully watched every Charlie Brown show and Christmas show with me every year and right then and there I missed my Mom dearly. Right then and there I was a little girl all over again. I had an emotional meltdown on BF and he gave me the words and all to soothe me but deep down I just wanted him to hold me like a baby. I know I cried for at least 20 minutes and I just don't know where that came from but I guess I needed it. Even at 42 I still want my mother like I'm 5. You don't get over that and you don't just say ok I'm past that. What makes it worse is when folks tell you she will always be with you. Sigh I know but she is not physically here. I can't dig her up out the ground and be here for me. Everyone comes to me for advice, an ear, a big mama hug because I have huge arms, or to be the strong one but dammit sometimes I need the same. Sometimes I'm just that lil girl named Glen and I just can't deal. When are people going to understand that? Probably never.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
My Home Wish List
Some women like to shop for clothes, purses, or shoes but I like to shop for my home. It's not where I want it to be but soon it will be just the way I want it. These are some of the items that I would love to have one day soon.
All items are from Z Gallerie
Wasn't paying attention to the chair. It was the vase I was after but I could use that chair as well.
Want to make me happy? These would make me giddy.
Nothing like candle holders that have bling.
These would be beautiful on a Dining table or Accent table.
My first blog since 360 days
It's me. The sassy mouthed one. Did ya miss me? No ....ok it doesn't matter I'm going to speak anyway. I've been trying my darndest to keep myself busy with little projects to keep from going crazy. I will have been out of the work force for 8 months officially on November 2nd. That's too darn long. I am on my second round of unemployment benefits as well. Too darn long. In the past two weeks I have been on 3 interviews and did two different assessment tests. Failed the one I really truly wanted and passed the other one. How come (yes I did say how come) I'm not working yet? Why hasn't anyone called me? There used to be a time when if you were called for an interview..you automatically could assume you near about had the job. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. So freaking frustrating. You know you have the skills yet they choose someone else. Why? Is it my looks? color? or size? I tend to think it's all three really but I'm not even going to get into that.
Lately to make ends meet I have been baking for other people. Slow very slow business. It's kinda like people like what you cook, know you can cook but don't want to pay for it. Do they not realize a real cake cost you at the very least $15 to make it? It's homemade folks. If a person takes time, care and love to put into their food then you should want to show your gratitude. Instead I get a lot of so when you gonna invite me over? Ok that's not a problem but hey I don't always have it. Towards the first of the month I'm scrambling looking for food and ways to feed my family too.
Well that's it for now. I know in these 8 months that I have been home I have found out I have different likes, sides of me that I am now venturing into and developing and guess what? I love it!! Until next time Smoochez!
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